Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Confessions...

I LOVE my new job. I love my colleagues, the kids I work with, the parents - I work in a strong school with a good community of people around me and FINALLY feel like what I do everyday actually closes the achievement gap.
But I still think about them - my old kids - all of the time. When I say all of the time, I mean at LEAST daily. I regret that I wasn't there to make them cakes on their birthdays, mediate their fights, prepare them for the state test, and see them walk across the stage at their 5th grade graduation. I still get random texts from them asking if I'll come back, or if I could teach at their middle school. It pains me so much every time I type the word 'no'. I vow to stay in touch, but we both know that this isn't enough. They need someone everyday to believe in them - to push them.
I left because I knew there would always be more kids - another reason to stay in a school where I wasn't supported professionally or personally.
So why, after so long, do I still feel like I should have stayed?
Like the kids at my new school would be okay without me, but there are 13 kids in the Bronx who are not okay because I left...
This is the only decision I've ever wrestled with for so long.
Does that mean I made the wrong choice?

50 comments:

Hedgetoad said...

the short answer is no.

You can only do what 'you' can do... and going to a situation where you are healthy and happy only makes you able to be more effective. Staying in a situation where you can't be the most effective teacher isn't good for anyone.

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Dear Julie,

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carly said...

Hi,
I've been reading your blog since I found out I'd be teaching a 2nd grade sped class a week before school started. I am a '07 NYC corps member and your blog got me through a lot of rough days, especially the first few months. Thank you.
I left teaching at the end of the two years, after having my kids for 2nd and 3rd grade. Like you, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about them. I miss them dearly. While I know taking a break from teaching was the right choice for me, I don't know what to do with how much I miss them.
So I guess I just wanted to say thank you, and I absolutely understand what you're saying.

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